Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Gone, but Not Forgotten



That would be me.

For a long time, I've been asleep at the wheel. Hibernating. Vegging out. Doing nothing, feeling lousy.

I had major surgery in March of this year and the stress on my body seems to have crushed my head along the way - I started having night terrors, panic attacks, increased overall stress; eventually I started feeling sick a lot more, got colds that would take a long time to disappear; my head felt like it was in a fog.

This morning, I woke up and the fog was lifted. I looked at my email for the first time in, oh, weeks. (thousands of emails, by the way. /cry) I marked a few that would lead me to interesting things - the Papercut Zine Library is looking for librarians, I read some polinews blogs (TalkLeft) and their comments; I've been reading a lot the last week.

So I hope I'm back from wherever I went. I am reinterested in the world.

I went through a dark, dark time when I was first ill many years ago when I had a similar haze; it lifted in the same way.

I feel... alive. Healthier, happier and bright-eyed. I want to do things. I want to write again.

So wish me luck; hopefully you'll start seeing my ideas dumped onto w4d again.

2 comments:

FM said...

welcome back!

as for myself, i feel disinterested in politics, mainly because i'm no longer irritated at the state of things. right now, my biggest challenge is finding interesting things on youtube to laugh at. life is good.

jana said...

i love you.